The Brand New Year ... OLA 2009 ! .... Same Old Problems

Hello busybodies ! Why busybodies ? because i think that people that are in love (or obsessed) with reading about other people's lives are busybodies... but i might be wrong on this subject. it might just mean that you would care enough to be concerned about other people's lives. whatever the reason may be.. i would like to thank you for stopping by my little place of scribbling. ARIGATOU !


Well well, what do you know, it's actually a new year ! it's 2009 ! it's 2000-fckin'-9 ! how the hell did i get here ?!? (my brain must have dozed off for a year or so...). Wow. It's a new year ! hey ! ey! ey... well... if only everything was in a bloody picture fckin' perfect state all the time... wouldn't that be nice for a change. heheh :)


my hopes for the new year was that i would like to have an ham-bour-gher... nah.. just kidding... i really wanted the new year to kick off with such peacefulness... such zen-ness... such tranquility-ness... (tranquility-ness?)... now i'm just crapping with words... oh well, moving on ! I just wanted the year to be good... but looks like lady luck spits in my face !


beyond this paragraph is a heart-wrenching story of the trials of love ! desperation ! heart-ache ! head-ache ! back-ache ! tooth-ache ! (tooth-ache? nah... i just added that in.. heheh... Moving ON !!!) .......... This is the story of how i kicked off my 2009 !


the time- 10 pm
the place- mi casa
mood- anxious, excited

i was at home, enjoying my XBox360, playing a few games when suddenly ! a thought hit me... literally... it was 10 pm on the 31st of december 2008. i was like WTF ?? WTF ??? WTF ?!?! WTF !!! it's the last day of the bloody year !!! (imagine how stoned i was to actually just realise the situation... sad? i know...). in the heat of the moment, i picked up my trusty communicator to send a distress signal to my comrade, Ryan (not his real name). when ryan answered, i was like "WHAZZUPPPP HOMIE !!!" and he was like "Eyyyyyy" and i was like "ey ?"
and he was like "ey" and i was like " EY!!!" then he responded with " OH !!"... wow... imagine how world scholars would judge our simple yet eventful conversation... beautiful... moving on...
so i asked him what's the plan and he said he didn't have any so i was like okey... so what are we up to? and he was like i dunno, how bout we plan sumthing on the move and i was like okidoki ! so i fired up the washing machine (reference to my car because it does look like a washing machine... hahah) and went to pick him up.

(im gonna skip a few hours because all we did for that night was lepak at my sister's place and chatted about old times while watching fireworks... sad ? i know... hahah)

time- 5 am
place- my neighbour's house
mood- wiped

continuation of the story happened next door to my house. i've been friends with my neighbour for years now. we're really close but since i went to study in KL.. things have gotten abit loose but we still remain close. that morning, he confessed that he wanted to break up with his fiancee becuase of some personal issues... okey look, you guys may read this and go "hmmm... doesn't concern us".. yeah yeah, this is my blog so im telling the story so fck off. this story means a lot to me because both the male and female in the relationship are my close friends. they've been with me thick through thin.

moving on... when he told me the story... i was like... wtf ? have you ever felt that news can sound so trivial at first but as you go on you suddenly realise the magnitude of the situation? so there i was... feeling like ... wtf ? wtf happened ? seriously? shit... wahhh... wtf was i supposed to do ? i haven't had any serious commitment like getting engaged to actually advise on the situation... so all i did was sit there, light up a ciggarette and listen..

around 8.30 am, he asked me "wanna follow?" and i was like "where?" and he said "i'm going to go pick up my stuff from her house"... i gasped... i said "what? you want to tell her today? are you serious?" and he just said " yeah. i've got to do it today" and i just said okey. so we got in the car... there were 3 of us... and sped off 25 km to her house (25 ? i think so... or he just made it seem like it was 25...). when we arrived, i stood in front of the house. i didn't know what to do.. i just froze there but my hands were moving. they (myhands of course) took out my pack and lit me a cigg... automatically... and i was thinking - "whoa.. we're actually here.." . the male subject of course went inside first followed by the other guy and lastly me with the most hasitation my feet can feel. i threw away my stick and went inside the gates... at that moment, i can spot the female subject. she was sitting, on the living room chair, staring blankly outside her house. i can see that her eyes were red and she was so powerless.. i'll tell you guys this... she is a petite girl, really small in size, but she seems to have shrunk due to the lack of food and baverage. i looked and my feet just froze again... at that moment i thought "sigh... " and just continued inside the house. she didn't even look at us... i used to remember how cheerful she was when she saw us... we were her friends... her smile now just turned into the saddest expression a face can make... i just turned away and walked on... into the kitchen where her mother was to salam... after that, i went straight back out and lit another one... at that moment.. i couldn't think... there was nothing in my head... it was as blank as the time i was loaded on valium... (that was when i was in the hospital for high fever). the male subject named Manny (not his real name) was talking to the girl's, Jules (not her real name), mother in the kitchen and laying out his decision. he decided on a clean break. that means all the past mistakes are forgiven and they won't continue their lives together. ain't that a bitch... oh well... moving on... so when he broke the news, the mother was abit mad but she was so calm and just talked to him... she accepts the fact that there is no more love that he can offer her daughter and that she thanks him for being a big help to them all those years... this conversation went on for about 2 and a half to 3 hours. at that time i actually fell asleep on the chair in the living room... like i said... my head was blank but i listened in on their conversation. look, i'm not gonna fill you guys in about everything because it's too personal. so i'm just gonna skip ahead to the part when we were leaving.

i got into the car in the left rear passanger's seat and just looked at them saying their last goodbyes. but then Jules went to the right side of the car and opened the door. she looked at me and said "help me..." i was looking down to the floor... "help me look after him... i know we've been friends for a long time and i think you know me best. eventhough him and me have nothing now but i still love him... i swear to god i still do. i want you to look after him... promise me you will". i just nodded my head. my voice was gone. she closed the door and i looked outside the window to my left. at that moment i realise my cheeks were wet. my cheeks were fckin wet! am i crying ??? wtf ??? jebus cripes... this is ridiculous... but i just couldn't help it... i notice Carlos (not his real name) in front of me was sobbing... we were like wtf ??? is this really happening ? have you ever felt you were useless? that you are the most trivial excuse of a friend for being unable to stop and mend things ? have you ? that's how i felt. those were the only thoughts running through my head. we were all sobbing in the car...

we all just went straight home and i just had a cold shower. after the shower i sms-ed her. i told her to be strong and take care of herself. to remember that she always has a friend to talk to. she replied saying that we're always friends till death. after all that i was blank. i crept into bed. turned on the air conditioning and pulled my blanket... i went straight to sleep.

and that ladies and gentlemen was my first day of this bloody fantastic new year ! there are still a few stories i wanna share but i'll leave it for another time...

thanks for reading this. good day !